i was reading a friend's blog just a while ago and she wrote about Kelly Clarkson's song, Dark Side. she wrote about her thoughts on whether she would dare to reveal her dark side or if she would ever find someone who could accept her dark side. it reminded me of me.
this coupled with my previous experience made me realize a difficult truth; that there are certain things that need to be for my own eyes only and for my own shoulders to carry. i made a mistake (one of many, i assume) of thinking my ex could save me. yes, dumb, i know but i thought he could share my burdens. it was and is not the right thing to do, at all.
now, i know that there are certain things that needs a little more time to be revealed and not just pop open the closet to have the skeleton fall in his lap. that's not the right or best way to introduce someone to your "dark side". this time, i'm taking it slow. i also realize there is no pressing need for him to find out everything. i'm not being dishonest, just cautious (and i really don't want to freak him out). heeh.
and i am strong enough now. (:
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
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