It was only 4 months ago that I said we're good.

Did things change in these 4 months or was I just blind and deaf to all the things that were not right?

I changed. I think that's more like it. I made a decision that put me on a track that is pretty much going nowhere at this point. And being on this track helped me realise some stuff.

I am really just a bad person. I don't know what else to say or what words to use to explain the things going through my mind. I just know that I don't want to do this anymore.

I suck.