had a terrible dream. and the fear still lingers. every heartbeat of mine remembers that feeling, remembers and dreads it. praying against everything that i will never have to feel that way again. but i know death is inevitable. still.

the pain, the sorrow as the realization manifests in my mind and then in my heart was so deep, my tears did not even know when to start. i woke up with tears in my eyes, knowing that i still have much unshed tears, tears i'm sure that has its time and place. but please, not anytime soon.

it was no doubt the scariest dream i had so far, not even comparable to when i was chased by dragons or falling off tall buildings.

/shivers