i so do want to live more but i just don't have the money for it.

i want to learn the guitar and dance (especially dance!), all kinds of dance; kpop, ballroom, tap dance, hip hop. i want to exercise and join those classes they have in the gyms around here; pilates, cycling, kickboxing, pole dancing.

i want to get drunk (once!) and dance, really dance in a club without too many sweaty bodies around me and risking being danced off the stage. i want to get thrown about in rivers, skate gracefully on ice and attempt to do it on wheels too. and maybe, just a crazy maybe, i'd like to jump out of a plane or get into a hot air balloon.

i want to enjoy beautiful scenery and walk on the roads of wonderful cities like Seoul, London, New York, Paris (generic, i know but you get my drift). i want to go back to Switzerland and actually understand all the places i went. i want to travel through Europe on the train. i want to see castles and learn their stories. i want to visit libraries and just absorb all the books. on a more realistic and less far-fetched note, i want to go cycling (although actually, this is quite difficult to achieve too).

more than anything, to do all these things i want to do with friends, with company, with laughter and happy memories. it would mean nothing if i do all these alone. :/ 

there are lots of things i want to do, dream to do. its quite disheartening that i haven't been able to accomplish much and age feels like its practically on my tail. i've entertained the idea of taking a break from studies but i somehow can't picture that. i've never been the kind of person that deviates from norm and its risky, of course to derail like that. uh, why am i even torturing myself by writing this?

goodnight, i'm going to study about horopters and motion parallax and how people make decisions.

 p.s. i always blog when i have something important to do. exams and assignments would get my head spinning but unfortunately in the wrong direction. bleh.