the saying you don't know what you have till its gone rings very true for me these past few weeks.

as much as i've been super excited about going to Korea, i don't want to leave this place either. all the friends i've made, the family i've found in my cell group, the classmates i've struggled through psychology with and all the relationships i've built with people i cherish; how could i leave? but some things have to be done, this one especially.

//edit: the above paragraph have remained so for the past few days. there are lots of things to write and i don't know where to start. an idea twinkled. i'll start with the picture of course.

the pictures says about finding a second self but for me, i found that in every friend, it is a different second self. to every friend i play a role and every friend plays a different role to me. i guess its been something that has always been at the back of mind; sort of started when i had a friend who was ranting about how his friends are just using him and they're not really friends.

it got me to thinking and i realized that it is very true. friends are really just people you need something from; be it material, emotional, physical, and i don't know, whatever else. in a way, it is a second self. perhaps its the self that you've always wanted to be or the self that you don't want to be or the self that  you admire and envy or the self that you tell yourself you need to learn from. and yes, it could be the self that has everything, the self that is good at studies, good at making friends, good to look at, good to be with.

and as much as you need something from them, they become your friend because they need something from you too. /sings that's what friends are for~/

through the two weeks of farewell, i've realized what kind of friend i am to to my friends. i haven't been the best but at least i'm aware of my own shortcomings. i appreciate the friendships i have in my life. they are so precious and such good teachers.

May God watch over them and bless them always. ^^