Music has always been an important part of my life and its no wonder that to every relationship/love story I've been through, there is a background music, a particular song that will always remind me of a particular person.

 Lately, I've been quite scarred by the guys who have been waltzing in and out of my life. Partially my fault, I don't deny but a relationship is two-way, no? Anyway, going off tangent here. What I want to do is just document the songs that will always bring that particular person's memories back to me. And maybe it will tell a story that can show me what to do next.

'C'
Bruno Mars - Grenade

although the song has a kinda sadistic feel towards it, it isn't the lyrics that reminds me of him. its the way he used to sing it all the time and he'd translate and sing it in Malay. it was always hilarious for me when he does it. strangely, towards the end of our relationship, the lyrics of the song made some sense to me. whenever I hear it now, its always with a bittersweet taste. I remember him and the good times we had but I also remember that the relationship was not really right to begin with.

"Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss"

Plain White T's - Rhythm of Love


this song reminds me of the dream I had for both of us, a naive, innocent dream of a girl who thought she was in love and that this love would last forever. well, that dream certainly didn't come to pass.

"Play the music low and sway to the rhythm of love"

'KS'
Keane - Somewhere Only We Know


Second bf was first love, first heartbreak. I heard this song somehow when I started having feelings for him. the song made sense of everything that I was feeling about the whole thing. Even now, a part of me (a very irrational and pathetic part) wishes we could have gone somewhere only we know, somewhere only two of us exist cus maybe then, it would have worked out.

"This could be the end of everything, so why don't we go somewhere only we know?"


'JH'
Zion T - ? (Question Mark)



this was one of his favorite song to sing in karaoke. when he first sang it, I didn't know who the artist was or what the song was about. it was only when I came back to Malaysia and stumbled upon it again, realized that its an awesome song that I remembered that it was the exact same song he liked. it was such a coincidence and when I knew the lyrics, it was the perfect song to describe how I felt about what we had. perhaps it was the cultural difference (he's Korean) because I really felt like a fish out of water with him. I didn't know what to do or what to expect, so it was awkward sometimes. it wasn't a bad relationship, I had a really good time and we're still friends now. this is one of those relationships that just slides back into easy friendship because we had a clear understanding of the relationship.

"물음표 물음표 찍게 만들어"

 'JB'
there really isn't any song that reminds me of him. I chose this because we sang this together when we were at the karaoke. there isn't really a song simply because the time we spent together was so short and yet so filled up with good memories that my brain had no time nor space to think of a song. sometimes, or maybe once in your lifetime, you meet this one person who fits your romantic fantasies, who is the perfect person to play the role you've always had in your mind, who is like a dream come true. 오빠 was this person to me. He was the perfect example of the Korean boyfriend, my kind of boyfriend and truthfully, now that I think back, despite the language barrier, he really got me and not just that, accepted and appreciated me for the way I am. despite all that, I know that our relationship will end when I come back to Malaysia but there is really no regrets. the four days I spent with him will forever be etched in my memory. and one day, maybe I will go and find him or maybe not.

"Falling slowly, sing your melody. I'll sing along"

'BL'
Taylor Swift - I Knew You Were Trouble
I didn't have a relationship with this guy really but he taught me a very important lesson on how much a relationship means to me.

"Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now"

'B'


I liked him, you know. I really did and it took me quite a lot of courage to trust him. But he didn't care enough to make space for me in his life.


"요즘 따라 내꺼인 듯 내꺼 아닌 내꺼 같은 너