Today is Day 212.

Not a significant day or anything but I thought I should write an update.

Things have been going really well. I am happy and I don't feel guilty or undeserving about it. It has not been the most smooth-sailing journey but as clichéd as it sounds, it doesn't matter as long as I'm with you.

I've noticed small things that you do now that you didn't used to do. Small gestures like touching me when you walk past, putting a hand over my shoulder after I bumped into a guy that used to like me (territorial much?), being sort of jealous, declaring that I'm yours, kissing me in front of your grandma(!), and finally understanding that there is no point arguing with me. Haha.

There's also been a few surprises lately; fixing my car wipers, washing my car, finally writing that love note (even though you cheated!), buying me Ms. Sunshine, and understanding what I needed when I had a really bad day the other day.

If I wasn't in love with you before, I'm definitely all in now, like head over heels in. It's not as scary although there will be times where I'll freak out.

I'm slowly moving towards you, I think because you are also slowly moving towards me. I cannot be any more happier about this and I am ever grateful that you've open up your heart to me.

  Sometimes, yea, I do feel like I'm overdosing. May be an introvert thing, may be it's my fear speaking but either way, I think our arrangement now works (for me, anyway. Heh.) and I can live with this.

A part of me wants more, I think I'll always do until I get it. More than anything, the timing is just not now or in the coming few years. Oh, but I do love a good daydream. So, I gotta make sure my fantasies don't go overboard less I scare everyone away.

Another thing that I have to take into account which I'm not letting myself worry about until I hand up my thesis is what the hell am I going to do for my future. I feel like there are so many paths that I can take but because I want to be the best at what I'll do, I'm getting really lost.

My heart's desire is still Korea but I don't know if that can be possible. Yea, just a lot things to figure out but till then, lets focus on my unwritten paper.

I'm gonna leave this for now. Time to hit the sack.
 Goodnight.